a list of love

- Really good, strong coffee that cuts my habit from 6 to 3 cups a morning.
- The "Houston, We Have Pants Off" playlist of good music that I grew up listening to.
- This lamp that I have that has a shade that looks like wood paneling.
- The fact that human anatomy is so interesting!
- Sparkly skull things
- "Star Spangled Manners" by Judith Martin. Definitely a good read.
- Having gushy time with my best friend, Caroline Rice.
- Using "the glory of love" as my excuse for everything I do.
- Metal music a lot lately
- The fact that my friend Abbey randomly invited me to go see Flyleaf with her! Totally awesome.
- Plaid skirts, gold accessories, black boots, wearing lots of black in general
- Brisk walks in the AM!
- Windex.
- Finally learning to appreciate my freckles.
- Embracing radical self-love in general! It's such a blessing to have such a fantastic life and I figure that since it's only me who leads it, I might as well love myself! It might come off as selfish or weird but I know that I'm worthy of a whole lot of lovin, especially from myself.
- "You are the one shining bright as the sun, and I'd love to turn you on if I could" being the only thing running through my mind when I see someone who makes me grin like a dumb fool.
- My job my job my job
- Leon Juicy Titties Yunioshi Butler Olin, aka my 1996 Honda Accord LX. He's so perfect even when he breaks down and I cannot wait to get his windows re-tinted and have his fluids all changed. Sometimes a little TLC is all my baby needs.
- Planning my magnificent move to the 806 with Caroline! Everything is coming together and we've begun to look at apartments and so many perfect things are happening. This is the opportunity I've been waiting and praying for and it fell right into my hands. We move next August and I'm counting down the days!
- The fact that August really isn't that far away...
- My TTU sweatpants that I bought in July. They're so comfy and they remind me of that week when I just lounged around and lol'd my way through Lubbock.
- Listening to Buddy Holly while getting ready for a night out on the town.
- The fact that "night out on the town" usually means ending up at Ihop and singing songs about cannibals.
- Hot chocolate <3
- All of my friends being dudes and therefore having almost no dramaz in my life anymore.
- The smell of text books. My endless amount of Bic Cristal Barrel blue ink pens. Pink highlighters. Loose-leaf paper. Sticky tabs. Floppy disks.
- Planning on ordering my first ever Filofax!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! eeeee!!!!!!!!!!
- The idea of a big elaborate camping trip in the near future

I've been in good spirits.
xoxo,
kjo.

A Summary.

xoxo

kjo

edit:

two girls, one midnight ihop escapade, and every reason in the world to throw up the middle finger. I have no shame.

<3

Jar of Hearts

Everything, in theory, should still be going swimmingly. I've found a best friend that is the best I've known in a while- someone who does not judge me and uplifts me when I'm so close to giving into the doubt. I've got a partner in crime at all times and it's such a lovely feeling to have someone care about you as much as you care about them, to have a mutual and ever-growing trust, to have unconditional love. My best friend is the best of the universe and I'm so grateful for Caroline. On top of that, I've begun to shed my three-year skin that has been itching so badly, and I've cut off ties with those who were choking me. Someone has come into my life, like a rocket, and I don't know if I really want him to leave. My job is paying me to be bubbly and have candy-colored hair. I should be so enthused about everything in my life, but I'm not; I'm sitting in a cold room and dreading everything that's running in my direction. Unlike a week ago, I'm not ready for anything at all, and the only thing I really want is to rent an apartment in another town and play music all day. I feel distracted and restless and like all I want is an escape.

Some things just build up, things that were always meant to build up, that were wanted, but they build up at the wrong time and in the wrong order. They build up too fast and too perfectly but not perfectly enough. I want to be a kid still, and I don't have the option. I feel like I've lost so much of myself.

Xo

what a wonderful world

I won't be meeting him for another few days,
but I love Kai Everett Jimenez so much.
So.
Much.


xoxo
kjo

good afternoon from the 806

Here it is: Goodbye Lubbock.

This trip has been good for me. It has helped me calm down and relax and let go of a lot of shit that has been riding my coattails. It has taught me to be excited for life. I've planned out a lot of my future since Friday morning, when the trip really began for me. I've decided so many things that I definitely was not capable of a week ago. All those jazzy lines about maturity and responsibility are really starting to make sense.

I'm going to Tech. I'm going to live in Clement hall. I've got to find a boat load of money. But so many things are certain (although so many more are not). I've picked my home and I'll be moving here in just over a year.

Damn.

good evening from the 806

I'm in Lubbock.

This isn't anything like my trip last time. I really just want to rediscover my adoration for Buddy Holly and sleep in the park. Luckily, though, TCM is on cable and they're playing Ferris Bueller's Day Off. I'm sososososo excited. Mostly cause I <3 Charlie Sheen in this movie.

Tomorrow I'll have a good blog, including my outfits. Stay tuned.

xoxokjo

Babies are Babies

My first biological nephew, Kai Everett Jimenez, was born at 5:01 AM Friday (yesterday, haha) morning. He is so handsome and so perfect. His brother, my step nephew, is going to be such a good role model. More than that, my brother and my sister-in-law are the best possible parents for such a gorgeous baby. I haven't met him yet (perhaps on monday night?) but I'm already so in love with him. The perfect balance of both of his parents facial features. He's also got me for one of his aunts. I cannot wait to dote on him and hold him and take him across the universe. The whole clan, both sides, are head over heels in love with him. I am so excited and so ready to watch him grow. What a beautiful baby boy, what a wonderful baby boy.

Maybe this one will stick.

I've had this blog for over a year and a half. I've erased all of my past posts in an effort to start new. I've been writing blogs and "about me"'s since I was twelve years old (and I'm older now, to say the least). To get things re-rolling, I thought, at four in the morning, it might be nice to explain who I am and my aim with this sorry excuse for a blog. My apologies are laid out on the table in advance.

My name has never summed me up until now. I am Karissa Joy Olin, often shortened to KJo. I like to believe that I can cheat destiny/ fate, death, and math tests. I am not pregnant, I do not do coke, I sleep in my own bed, and I have never had sex under the influence of beer or tequila. I say this to shoot down any stereotype of the American teenager that might be held against me.

I am a Texan by birth and I claim my statehood before my American citizenship. My passions are music, writing, traveling, baking, dressing and living fabulously, reading, bath and body works' Body Butter, 5 inch Heels, men who wear Polo Black, and memorizing random trivia from history. I like Frank Sinatra, the colors pink, blue, grey, and ivory, weddings, cherries, bassists, and Marie Antoinette. I do not like parmesean cheese, pepper in my food, blisters, sunburns, people who refuse to read, being called "Baby", shiteous screamo (lookin' at you, Oli Sykes), Windows OS, and the tint on the windows of my car. I have a tendency to love and love deeply. I am in a constant state of shock and awe by the world around me and I'm much "deeper" than my freckled epidermis will ever suggest. I do not like being told that my eyes are green because it is a very obvious fact and it does not ever surprise me. I spend a majority of my paychecks on DVDs, clothing, makeup, and a lot of gasoline. I want to document my life in case anyone is ever curious or I pull a blank and forget my adventures. Oh, and let us not leave this out: I'm going to be a very important musician one day in the near future. I sing in order to keep my own sanity. I keep sane so I can sing.

I am a Libra (second decan), an ENFP, a makeup junkie, a water monkey, a sleepy little bear covered in leather and lace, and the jerk who kicks down dominos and blows over card houses. I'm just trying to figure out my future and plan for things (and have them follow through) and maybe keep a shred of dignity. I'm a little off balance and I cannot keep a hair color to save my life, but I'm pretty spectacular once the burn from the fireworks dulls down.

Hello, I'm Karissa Joy Olin, and I'm about to snuggle my way into your heart.